Before Thad and I got married, we decided we wanted to wait a year before kids. Well… our one year anniversary is in less than two weeks, and…we started trying to get pregnant in August. We’re currently in our 8thmonth. It’s been a difficult journey, with each month filled with hope, only to end in disappointment and frustration.
Today, we got a test result back that confirms that there is an issue. While I’m thankful to have answers, I have to admit to being fearful. I know nothing is impossible with God (Luke 1:37), and that I need to trust and rest knowing God is sovereign and able. But…my human heart is made heavy with fear and sorrow. I don’t enjoy dark days.
As I got home from work today, I saw a package on my doorstep. I had found some great sales online earlier this week, and my order is scheduled for delivery on Friday and Saturday. I assumed one of my packages had arrived early, and I was excited to try on my new clothes. I went to pick up the box, and I noticed a bright red “Fragile” label. Clothes shouldn’t be fragile, right? After checking the label twice to make sure the box was intended for me and not one of my neighbors, I took it in and opened it. Inside the box, I found a beautiful, purple flowered cream and sugar set. However, there was no note or indication of who they were from. I messaged my mom and my husband. Thad knew nothing about it. My mom finally replied and admitted to buying them for me and said they had arrived a day early.
The cream and sugar set reminded me of a few things. First, they reminded me that God goes before me every step. The future is unknown. Every day is a step into uncharted territory, but God goes before me. He knows what comes next. He knows what I need and when I need it. He knows when dark days are coming and how to add brightness to them.
It also reminded me that I am loved and thought about. My mom thought about me when she saw the cream and sugar set and bought them for me because she loved me. In Matthew 7:11, Jesus said, “If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give what is good to those who ask Him!” My Heavenly Father loves me even more than my earthly mother could and He too gives good gifts.
Does a surprise cream and sugar set change the situation or the test results? No, but they do remind me to look to the One who can.
Maybe you’ve had a dark day or a string of dark days. Your situation may not be easy or one you would have chosen, but God is still good. He is still able, still faithful, still gracious. Be reminded, you are loved by God. He goes before You, and He knows what you need.